i never thought i'd have to write another one of these -_-" i said i don't regret much - it's because i don't regret us. i've learned tons, and i can't pretend i wasn't happy. you've taught me the best and the worst, guided me through so much, and taught me how to love again. you're saying things like i never cared, or noticed your efforts. everyday. i care for you, because you're supposed to be my bestfriend. i've helped you get back up back then, and did again. i always want to be.. but sometimes things don't happen the way we want them to. it's not like i wanted this to end like this. it's just . i've had so many doubts, after a couple of things happened. it's whatever, it happened, okay. and then things built up and my doubt just grew. and so did my anger. you did so many things to make me angry, and i didn't let it go. not even till this morning -__- ever since. the beach day? the first one. you said you wouldn't leave and you did. then everything about visith. then you dancing with other girls. then everything about quynh. then the shit with my arm. then yelling at me on the phone? AND THE THING THAT PISSES ME OFF THE MOST? YOU LEAVE IT BEHIND AND PRETEND IT DIDN'T HAPPEN. LMAOLMAOLMAO. we fight, and after you still have the nerves to call me lovely or pookie or whatever the fuck. like what the shit? did that not JUST happen? fucking freal. after all of this i just wanted to open up the unhealed scars, fucking hell. people who actually asked why ! stopped me . you tell me you never thought i cared. you tell me you always thought i was done with it long ago. you tell me you know i was so called leading you on. so why so surprised? to be continued.