i know. you're trying to ignore me and be sure i'll be happy with the other. you're trying to neglect your feelings, you're unsure what to do anymore.. i get it . i guess .. it's for what's best? i mean, it's what we both want, right? well. all. but i have to ask you something - are you going to be happy? because that's what comes first for me. others' happiness. if you're not happy, i wish you'd tell me, it would make things so much easier.. i don't know anymore. you're refusing to open up to me, you're leaving me questions and.. uncertainty. lol at the same time i know she's still in your heart. maybe it's not only me that has to fix out things.
you can't.. hurt me. on purpose. knowing you are, knowing i'll read it, having the knowledge you will. and be smug about it. and then in the next second, be nice again. you're confused.. but you're confusing. you told me not to do anything stupid while you're gone. lol . myyyyyy bad. i fell down the stairs when i was tipsy . took more shots at home. and i was angry, so i did angry things. tellin you now. so if you WERE trying to get at something, i think you've achieved that. because i'm certainly not happy .